Freethinker's corner

As you progress through life, you gain experience. At some point you reach a plateau; it is inescapable, and that plateau becomes you. Everything is viewed and judged by those attributes present in the plateau. You can try to change, but you find eventually that the changes are superficial. They are like a front. It’s what you want on an intellectual level, but it isn’t you.
You come to know what you consider normal. You might say this is at a gut level. No matter how you pretend, you, your self inside, have already set, like a gel, or even like cement, a viewing perspective.

You can say that so and so is a normal behavior, but you fail inside to change your “gut” perspective. You simply cannot change the feeling that there are some things that dwell in the category of the mentally unstable. You can deny the feelings. The feelings remain. You feel like a hypocrite. If you do not deny the feelings, there are many who would label you a bigot. The artificial façade goes up.

All of your life you have been given perspectives of what to expect from “normal”. No matter what you claim, you can never change, not inside.

To be honest and truthful, you must admit to yourself that certain behaviors, certain anomalies, can only fit properly in the column designated “mentally ill”. To accommodate others, the façade remains in place.

Then, is uncomfortable an adequate word as to how you feel? Or is it worse than that? Most certainly, how people see you is not how you truly are.

Some will see through your artificial front. A slip here or there is impossible to avoid. Once they see through the veil their own prejudices, perspectives, and assumptions… form the vision they have of you. They really do not see the truth any more than you do. They only have, and will ever have, only what they assume.

So what next? At that point I say to hell with everyone else, not that I believe in such foolishness, but you must be true to yourself.